Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Lots of updates

1. Monday night I cooked fish for the first time in my life. Salmon in a cocunut curry sauce.... and it was quite successful! I was proud of myself, I've been meaning to try cooking fish for many years but had this preconceived notion that it would challenging. Quite easy actually! I'll have to cook some for G when he visits in September! ;)

2. Yesterday morning I had to drive to the N-Judah (muni or metro or train, for all you non-NoCal people) to get to work instead of taking the bus since I was getting my hair cut in SoMa (aka South of Market... Market is a main street in downtown SF) after work. Well...... my lovely friends Lenny and Vlad decided it would be fun on Sunday to completely cover my car with saran wrap. I had heard about this venture, so I went out armed with a camera and some scissors. Due to the dampness, salt, and sand on my car from parking it by the ocean, the saran wrap was pretty stuck on and took me 10 mins to get it all off! I plan on taping it to Lenny's front door in a big mess in the near future.

Because of the saran wrap incident, I missed the train I wanted. Thanks assholes.

3. A complete quagmire this morning occured with transportation. Everyday I take the 8:08am 31AX bus to work. Everyday it arrives, pretty much always on time. Not today. A group of us waited and waited for about 20 mins and finally realized it wasn't coming. We hopped on the next 31 bus (the X buses are express buses that have limited pickups and then shoot downtown where most people work...Financial District, Embarcadero...and the regular bus takes at least double the time), and then about 10 mins down the road someone says there is a filler bus for the 31AX. We hop on... but this guy drives the 18 route and has no idea where he is going! So we have to navigate him and tell him where the stops are. I wanted to take a nap on the bus to make up for missed sleep last night, oh well. I still managed to make it to work by 9:15.... half hour after I typically get in.

4. I received an email from Gordon that I looked at this am. It included pics from multiple parties and events that occured over the past weekend that I clearly missed bc I live 2,700 miles away. I looked at the photographs and saw what a great time all my friends were having and I started feeling sadness bubble up inside of me. I miss everyone in DC so much that when I am reminded of what I am missing it absolutely breaks my heart. Yes, I want to see pictures, I want to see my friends having fun and doing well... but at the same time its really sad that I am no longer an integral part of their daily lives. Its sad to know that life goes on without me there and I miss so many funny and fulfilling moments that only true friendship can provide you. I think I just might cry at my desk, I'm such a loser. Seeing those pictures and being reminded of all I left behind to move to SF has absolutely ruined my day.... I can't focus on work, I can't run meetings properly, I look sorta dazzed and absent-minded today. I'm not absent-minded though, I'm just having a major homesickness relapse (for DC, which I still consider my home). I didn't just leave behind a city with cherry blossoms and monuments and politics. I left behind a city full of people who have become my family, I left parts of me with them that I can't tap into alone, I left a bundle of my good humor and laughter behind with my Evildoer, I left a bundle of childhood, teenage, and almost-adulthood moments behind with my Patticake, I left a bundle of tenderness and deep, thoughtful intellectual, interesting, satisfying conversations/moments of realization behind with my G-Funk. Why can't I have all my friends around me all the time??? Why don't they want to live where I live???? MOVE DAMMIT!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm sure your friends still make YOU a part of their lives. They still e-mail you and talk to you. We become a part of whoever we meet in life, so you are a part of them and they a part of you - always. Smile and the world smiles with you!!!...Karen

Amy said...
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Amy said...

Ok, I totally forgot a word in my comment so I decided to delete and start again. Unfortunately Blogger is a big ho and insists on announcing that the comment was deleted. Why can't it just quietly delete?

Anyway...

I miss you lots. It's hard to be so far away from you. I can't wait to see you in CT. I'll be in my second trimester by then! I love you!

xoxoxox

Gordon Simonett said...

I love you Bren. You're never far away from us. -Gfunk