It's Late

I'm in CT right now and it's damn late at night. I think I'm tired, but I don't know if I can sleep. It has been a really weird trip for me. I flew in to CT on July 20th and then I drove down to DC on the 24th and left the 27th. I had such a great time seeing everyone in DC. It was weird, I was driving on streets I used to drive on all the time and my memory was failing me as to where I was going. How can I forget streets after only 5 months?? I think I was partially in a brain-fog while I was there, it was confusing for me to be in DC given recent homesickness. I loved being there, but it made me really sad too. I'm super glad I got to see friends and see Amy while she's pregnant and see Dan and G's new place (which I can't believe how well they are getting on without me....wtf is that????).

I have 2 more days in CT and then I fly back to SF. I am really happy I get to see friends and family here, but I am also really excited to get back to my life in SF and work towards making it better and making myself happier. It has been confusing being on the east coast, but I think it also has provided a bit of clarity for me. I've been wanting to run back to my life out here and I haven't been living my life out there. I don't want to leave San Francisco regretting not taking advantage of it and not doing what I meant to do by moving out West. I feel a renewed sense of purpose for why I moved out West and I intend to use this time to advance myself in all the ways I want to. I really do miss my DC family and everyone out East, but I also know I need to finish living out my dream of living on the West coast, and do it right.

So, I watched a girly movie tonight. My little sister and I went to Blockbuster and we picked up the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. OMG, SO cute. I really liked the movie, it made me cry numerous times....which sometimes a good cry can really help release a lot of crap inside you. I've been watching a lot of silly chick flicks recently, I dunno why, something inside me draws me to them lately. I watched The Family Stone last week and Rumor Has It the other night. Both were also good, esp The Family Stone...another tear jerker. And quite unexpected. Anyway, the Sisterhood movie was freakin adorable and also reminded me of how even though I live far away now and everyone's live take different paths, we will always find time for those that are most important to us and they will always be a part of us.

Probably time to try to get some sleep... I can't be as lazy tomorrow, I have to get up for a 50th surprise party which is at noon (I slept til 2pm today...lol) and then hopefully see all my CT friends again later before I head back to SF on Sunday night.
xox.
B

Homesick

I'm homesick a lot lately. More than I ever expected to be. I guess before I left DC I didn't think about how homesick I would get. I miss driving on the streets I drove on in DC. I miss going to the places I liked to go to in DC. I miss going to my gym in Pentagon Row. I miss going to Champps for karaoke night and laughing at the people and getting messy sundaes with Amy or Dan. I miss staring at hot Arlington cops. I miss wandering around outside memorials and feeling patriotic and relaxed. I miss sitting at the tidal basin and watching people go by on peddleboats. I miss making enchiladas with the crew. I miss "wednesday night dinners" any night of the week with G and Dan. I miss rolling on the ground laughing with Evildoer in the kitchen over retarded jokes we make up. I miss exercising with Amy and catching up while we ride the bikes and laugh at the weirdos that pass by in the gym. I miss getting dinner every week or two with Renee, my carefree AU buddy. I miss hosting parties at my apt and playing hostess to all my friends from over the years and welcoming new people. I miss the warm humid air at night where it wraps you up and relaxes you. I miss "Mr. Storm" coming to get you! I really miss crab rangoon from the local chinese restaurant that "provides a unique." Unique what?? I miss running on TR Island. I miss working in Georgetown. I miss Dupont Circle and the yummy restaurants. I miss cuddling up on Amy's fluffy couch and having girl talk for hours on end. I miss LOST nights at my old apt on the big screen with Dan, Amy, Howie, and Les. I miss laughing uncontrollably with Amy and Les in public places (namely nice restaurants) about retarded things while Howie stares confused. I miss deep late night talks with Gordo. I miss James Bond movie nights. I miss the family that surrounded me in Arlington, the family that I long for now. I miss far too much about DC. And what's even more weird is that Amy and Howie will no longer be there soon too....